Day 26: A Case for Grumpiness

I just want to start by saying that I did not wake up grumpy. Tired yes, but not grumpy. Grumpy started on my subway commute to work, after I had a nice morning workout at home and a quick cuddle with my kitty. Yes, it was after I walked through the softly, falling morning snow and made my way to the subway station.

Carl says I should just walk to work and avoid the things that make me grumpy. And I am contemplating it even though the weather is starting to get much colder. The stark, cold air does start to feel good when you are laden with so many layers: undershirt, wool sweater, hat, gloves, scarf, coat and boots. What caused me to get grumpy isn’t even worth mentioning, and I have managed to put it past me [for] now. Maybe it was getting to see my sweet, little kitty that was lovingly waiting to greet me when I came home from work that made it go away, or it could have been the warm hug from my husband, which always has a way of dissolving grumpiness.

Whatever it was has left the building and there is a nice bar of chocolate with sea salt waiting for me. Chocolate always helps, and with almost anything. I just want to say that it is okay to be grumpy. It doesn’t have to take over the day. It can be a traveling companion that you stuff into your shoulder back to keep from spitting on the people around you. Mine certainly kept me on my toes. All day long he kept prodding me to think about what I would write today. What would I find positive about the day? There wasn’t any specific thing or thought that stood out (chocolate). Of course it is easy to say that I am thankful for my health and all of the blessings in my life. And I don’t want to present myself like I take those things for granted because I truly feel thankful and blessed for my health and my life every, single day. It also wasn’t that I was thinking negative thoughts. It was more like I was staring at a blank slate. And my blank slate had a small disclosure at the bottom, which read, “I permit you to feel grumpy today.” Thank you. I’m going to eat my chocolate now.